I haven’t really been around much the past week or so… I’m almost scared to say it, in case I jinx it, but I’ve been feeling a bit better lately, so naturally I’ve been overdoing it.

Now I should point out that by “better” and “over doing it” I mean I’ve been able to get showered and dressed every day instead of a couple of times a week, and I’ve been able to eat solid food instead of living of those milk vitamin shakes like Complan and Build-up.

That alone is wonderful, the sugar in those things is just ridiculous. Plus I’m intolerant to dairy, so lack of movement and shoddy diet meant I’ve gained about 2 and a half stone in the last couple of years.

And that’s not like me, I just don’t gain weight.

Still, I’m not even on my proper anti-allergy diet yet and already I’ve lost half a stone in the past week.

This week is a bit manic, dentist yesterday, an appeal tribunal on Thursday to see if they’ll finally accept the opinion of several doctors that I’m disabled (which I already know now that they won’t… long story, maybe another day).

So my big life plan… Well I have two, depending on the day.

On a bad day my life plan is hire a gardener to dig a nice big pit in the back garden, club me over the head with the spade, then fill in said big hole in the garden…

I’ve not been seen in public for so long, there’s not really any worry of anyone noticing, so finding an employee for the task shouldn’t be too hard

Fortunatley now things have been looking up the past couple of weeks, my life plan is get on the anti-allergy diet, which makes the biggest difference to my health. Then get the past 5 years worth of built up crude due to inactivity sorted, filed or chucked, then maybe go back to college and do another photography course, or something else that I could do working for myself, or preferably from home in general.

I’m so sick of sitting here aimlessly watching the computer screen or the TV screen watching life wander by. And whilst proper employment is out of the question, I’d quite fancy rejoining the ranks of the gainfully employed (or self-employed if need be) so I had something worthwhile to do with my time, and wouldn’t have to be reliant on benefits and the little whims, foibles and dislikes of the benefits doctors in determining how much they think you should and shouldn’t be capable of.