Cross-eyed and worn out.
05/18/2003
What a day!
Make that what a week!
So far three people I know have died this week. One I found out about on Friday, the other two I only found out about today. One has to have an autopsy because they aren’t sure what happened. He was only in is early 70’s and was always in good health until the last year or so. He has been on a downward spiral ever since his wife died a few years ago. I guess he didn’t want to have to go on without her. He was only in is early 70’s and was always in good health until the last year or so.
The second one was only in his late 30?s; he was diagnosed with a brain tumour a little while ago. The funeral was on Friday. I hope his family is coping ok.
Third person was in his 60’s, he had a lot of health problems and I’m guessing tended to just ignore them as much as possible, so by the time he went to the doctor and was diagnosed with cancer, it was just too late for them to do anything. As far as I can tell that funeral was last week sometime too.
I always think death is blown out of all proportion. The people who are dead are free. All their suffering is over. It’s the ones left behind that have the hard job. They have to go on. They have to live. They have to cope. Not an easy thing to do if it’s someone you were close to. Loosing someone is the hardest thing to have to face, but what can you say to help, how can you make it better. The only answer is you can’t. It comes down to faith and hope. After that each person must deal with it in his or her own way. We can be there for them when they need us. We can be a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen. But the one thing we really want to do is the one thing we never can do. Take the pain away. Only time can carry that burden.
Well no matter how much we wish it didn’t, life goes on. I’ve been working on the company website for the past hour, and emailing files out for the previous 3 hours. I think I’m going cross-eyed from looking at the coding and trying to read/cross-reference the JavaScript book. I want to go to bed!
Back to the coding, I have to take it in with me tomorrow.
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Ren said,
February 22, 2004 @ 1:00 pm
From sweettas at Sunday, May 18 13:55
I’m sorry to hear that your week went so bad. Mine hasn’t been much better, if you read my journal. And your right, its so hard to be the one left behind. If you need an ear to talk to , or a shoulder to cry on, I understand, and give me hollar. Isn’t there a way to take a break from work? When things get a little rough, or overbearing, I go down to the lake, and just close my eyes. Take in the sounds of the water, and just breathe. It helps to rejuvinate me, and I can handle things so much better. ((HUGS)) to help,,
From slayer4uk at Sunday, May 18 15:24
Thanks. I’ll be ok. None of them were totally unexpected they were just so sudden. I think it’s the speed that shocked me more than anything else.
As for time off work, hmm, I think the term not a chance is the correct one. I’ve been off work sick for the last 2 weeks, so I don’t think now’s the best time to ask for a holiday
Anyway, next week might be better *looks around dubiously* Well it could be!
I’m sorry to hear about your uncle and grandfather. There is really nothing I can say about your uncle. I just hope the kids get the full force of the law. For you grandfather, they just don’t make them like that generation any more. I know from my grandparents, they looked so frail, so small, yet they clung on like the tough old boots they really were. I know it’s sounds harsh, but the quicker they go the better, because the longer they last the more tehy have to suffer.
I hope your mother get better soon though.
(((((((Loads of hugs back))))))